Used to be many different things
For me, at least
A hundred wishes
A dozen celebrations
A number of birthday cakes
For the past 3 years
3 wishes would be the norm
5 is many
A dozen is a miracle
On my birthdays
I’ve lived in cities where I know
It’s not relevant
I still don’t get the wishes
I used to get
I’m getting accustomed to a muted kind of birthday
I’ve been having lately, but still
I don’t get offended though
I asked God a miracle
That it’s not another muted birthday
It didn’t happen
I didn’t get the miracle I asked for
But this year
The reverse of a miracle
And it’s as miraculous
As a miracle would be
In a perfectly natural way God shows
That He is there
That He is here!
That all my ministry
Isn’t a personal investment project
That I should — that I could! —
Expect for a return
On my ‘investment’
That’s it’s perfectly fine
To be forgotten
To phase out
Into the background
This ministry — heck, even this life! —
And He’s opened up paths
Provided the means needed
10,000 miles ahead of me
And He delivered them
Let me remember this
And how He shows Himself
As who He is
And that should be more than enough
God is faithful
God is great
this is the end of a season
a season of waiting
an extended season of waiting
a season in which i’ve received
a gift i’ve asked for as long
as i remember
back into my childhood
before i started kindergarten
before i could read
of a community
together love GOD
Matt is a brother for whom I thank God
For his love for Him, for his life, for who he is
For how He’s created and designed him
Vulnerable. Honest. Passionate. Courageous.
One who love God just like David did in 2 Samuel 6:14!
It’s just what I saw in his blog entry being the message is a lifestyle:
May I develop a love that is relentless in chasing after Him. Through all the things that I may go through, let my heart remain tender before God. Despite what the world can offer to me, it can never be compared to the day where I will be meeting The One I love face to […]
My old friends have heard me speak so often of being God’s #signpost. Heck, how could this guy speak with a language that resonates so clearly with my heart?
is it an oxymoron?
some people around me believe so
i grew up believing so
would good people inevitably turn evil
once they become entrepreneurs?
it’s a categorical possibility
just like air purifiers…
they face the wild, dirty, cunning, evil world outside
to provide a tamed, cleaner, more habitable world to those they serve
they deal with our daily evils
so many don’t have to
who’s got the gut?
who’s got the call?
will you answer it?
“Who will roll away the stone for us
from the entrance of the tomb?”
Still they prepared the spices.
Still they beat the sun, waking up in the dark of the night.
Still they walked to the tomb.
Doing what they could.
To the very end of their wit.
And it’s there …
He met them.
how to love god
in the waiting?
to love is to be positively engaged
but, to wait …?
is a void in between
is a gap to be filled
or wasted away
or is it?
what do people do in the waiting?
mindlessly scrolling through their timeline
all just for killing the time
the value of the activity
is in salvaging the time
in the waiting
then how to love
in the waiting?
does it make a difference
between loving in the waiting
and waiting while loving?
to love in the waiting
is not just about salvaging the time
it’s about turning this wasteland
into a springboard
a springboard of exploration
a playground for us, lovers
a time in between where no deadline reigns
a space in the darkness where no predefined path imposes its way on us
without burden to perform
just to be
When morning comes
The worry of the night is washed away
In the warmth of the
Albeit it’s minus six now
is a reminder
Leading used to be a big thing for me. I aimed for and did hold quite a number of leadership positions. The way forward was upward.
That is no longer the case. I’ve lost most appetite for leadership positions. That’s not just for me. I find leading to be too mentally and emotionally taxing, and it’s just not where I’m at my best.
I still hold a leadership position, but I’m also seriously considering to resign and focus solely on areas where I’m actually gifted, shunning all formal leadership positions. In the meantime though, there are still people and projects I need to manage. How should I handle this responsibility?
Resources such as the Stephen Covey’s The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People or, a more recent work, Chris Voss’ Never Split the Difference would be my go-to resources, but things are different now, and these end up ringing hollow for me.
I’m going slowly through The Sermon on the Mount accompanied by Scot McKnight’s commentary. This is what I need! Reading through the Beatitudes, I realize how much I need to grow into the likeness of this blessed ideal Jesus taught. These sayings apply not only to certain aspects of my life, but to the whole of it! My leadership role is one area where I need to apply the Beatitudes’ ideals.
One life. One standard. Be it as a friend, a foreigner, a student, a son, a minister, a leader — in my whole life I’m to use the Beatitude as a mirror, an ideal, a template to grow into. The way forward is whichever direction the Lord walks me to.